Guys That Junk Called PROM andotherthingsthatfollow

Okay so I know you have all probably seen the pictures but I don't care. I never actually got to TELL you guys about it! Okay so we started off with breakfast at I hop I believe. And that was good. Then me and my wonderful date Jeremy and Micaela then drove to my grandmas to get the boutonnieres that I designed for me and my friends! We had a lot of time to kill because people were doing other things, so the little three musketeers (Caela me and Jurr) went to my house and listened to some music. Then we drove around and basically had fun. We then went to get ready for our amazing pictures done by our fantastic friend Mariah Woodfield. All of the girls looked amazing and the boys were just dashing! Here are the pictures: (again for those who are friends with me on Facebook)

The lovely ladies:

 The dashing young men:

The full group:

Now the stars of the show:

(Starting with the struggles of the pictures your family takes)

I needed help

Still failing

 Okay he is HOT in this picture

 I dont know what he said....

 SO CUTE

Hi me.

Okay now the ones the REAL photographer took

My personal favorite

OKAY AFTER ALL THAT CUTENESS!

We then went to dinner, on the way me and Jeremy stopped for gas and I had to uhm get some stuff at the place called WALLY WORLD. We then proceeded to go to dinner at the Chefs table! It was really good, I got the Filet Mignon which was so pretty looking! I sadly didn't get a picture of it. All of the food was amazing! After we were off to the dance! The theme was "Such Great Heights." Now let me tell you. As you can see my dress is a little strapless. And I am aware there are spots in the pictures, but that wasn't my biggest issue....no my biggest issue was the fact that when I am hyper  I like to dance. So here I am trying to dance like a crazy person in a strapless dress. That didn't go so well. It went a little better though then my dear friend who's straps popped off and she so gracefully showed the world what she had underneath. (only for a split second though) Bless her though for not letting anything hold her back from dancing like a black girl.

 The dance was AWESOME I was wiped out though! Our friend Devin was lucky enough to score us a game room for an after party. Which was basically where I fell asleep on Jeremy on the couch. The drive home though was a blur...I was told I was acting like I was on drugs. We came to the conclusion our food had been drugged because multiple people had felt and acted the same way I did. So if you like to feel weird spend a lot of money while eating amazing food. Go to The Chefs Table. The whole dance was amazing, and I wouldn't of wanted to spend with anyone but my best friend (he wasn't technically mine at the time;))

I honestly can say that it has been the best dance I have ever gone too. But that hasn't even been the ONLY highlight of my last couple weeks. Not only did I go to prom.... 

BUT

 I got to go to my FIRST concert! Some of the best pop punk bands were playing! The Story So Far, Tonight Alive, Man Overboard, Citizen and The American Scene! Sadly American Scene wasn't able to make it. I just want to say though....that concert. WAS CRAZY. The Story So Far had one of the best crowd interactions ever. There were multiples of kids jumping of stage and crowd surfing! One of those of course being Jeremy. I was just going nuts in the middle of a million sweaty kids with Becca. I also got head butted to the point of my face swelling and me almost passing out....worth it. I had an amazing time where I got my first signed poster from Tonight Alive. LOVE THEM! 

There was one photo bomb that we can't forget:

I was then wiped out also from that festivity....I have had some fun things happen since then...

like becoming officially taken!  

Over looking the lake and city lights if I might add in...HOW ROMANTIC! No but really. Cute. I couldn't be happier, I mean whats better than falling in love with your best friend? Nothing except maybe food. And even then that's a tough one. Over all everything is going great in my life! Going to color festival this weekend so I will have to tell you ALL about it later. 

Thanks for reading guys!!!

Be True

Be You

Be Beautiful

One more thing:

Tonight our school lost a dear friend. A girl has taken her life.  I didn't ever get the chance to really know her. And I regret not getting to know her. I hope you rest in peace. I could tell a lot of people loved you. And I can tell a lot of people will miss you so much.  You seemed like such a kind hearted person, with such a bright soul. If anyone ever needs anything I want them to know I am always here for them day or night. No matter what. And I want everyone to try and realize that what they say can make a big impact on someones life. So try to make a big change and start to reach out to other people, say hello or say something nice even if its to someone you don't know. You could make a difference to someone even if you don't know it. This world needs to make room for a little more love and a lot less hate. Please remember that words can hurt, and just because someone isn't what you call "normal" or "cool" doesn't mean you need to say anything rude about them, please remember to get to know a person INSIDE before you judge them. I truly am sorry to her that I never tried to be her friend. I wish I could go back to try and talk to her. I think I need to make a change myself and start talking to people who aren't just in my little circle. I think everyone needs to do this. Because this world will only survive if everyone lends a hand. We depend on other people not just ourselves. Everyone is important, and everyone can make a difference. Make some new friends, and say kind things. Everyone matters. Everyone. It shouldn't have to go this far for people to realize how important a person is. And it shouldn't ever have to go this far in general. Ever. If anyone needs anything please do not hesitate to call or text me, if you don't have my number Just email me, message me on twitter or Face book. I am here for anyone even if I don't know you very well. People are different, we aren't made to be the same. So stop judging just because they aren't like you. We should be able to be who we want to be. And even if the person isn't getting bullied, being nice is just a good thing to do.

RIP Carli.

Songs of the day:

I just really like this cover, and this band, and these people. 

That's a lot of twists in the road.

I came into my senior year with low expectations  High anxiety and excitement  I didn't think of it to be much. I was scared because this is my last year of my free life. I am growing up and that scares me. SO MUCH. But its time I move on from my little kid life. I have been through more these last three years then I am willing to admit  And I have given up on everything. At times I have lost all interest in my life and just wanted to stay in my bed. And not move. There have been many times where my limits have been pushed. Where I have been hanging from a cliff begging for someone to help me back onto solid ground. There have been moments when I gave up on my friends, my family in myself and in god. When I honestly believed none of it mattered. I never want to go back to those feelings. I hated so much. I hated people. I hated myself and I thought the world was out to get me. I have been helped by many but non have been able to fix me. Then today happened. A day I have been dreading for a couple days. I lose faith in people easily and don't ever expect them to stay. Not many have ever stayed. A few have, yes. But not many. Some people have walked out of my life recently and I felt empty. Because they were people I never wanted to see walk away. So when I saw them for the first time in awhile.....I lost everything, and I broke apart. Then to see people your close to be sad and know you can't fix it is a feeling you never want to have. So I had that pilled on me...along with the thought of how much my life is going to change in 3 months and I didn't know what I was going to do. I still don't. Where am I going to go? And what am I going to do? I don't know. 

Tonight was my breaking point. I cry a lot I will admit,  but today just felt wrong. 

Then I saw Chase McCubbins. Now as a lot of you know this kid is nothing but pure at heart and one of the most amazing kids you will ever meet. He is someone that knows what you need, and how to make your day better. He is already a true missionary. I call him West lakes Missionary of course. (You will see why I am bringing him up later)

A few hours ago I was sitting at my computer crying. And I didn't feel good inside. Then I remember a band me and Ben were talking about and I remembered how long its been since I have listened to them. Augustana. I pulled up the song "Fire" and gave it a listen. The second the words were said I started to cry harder. But they weren't tears of sadness. Tears of reassurance. I felt emotion no band has ever been able to give to me. I felt my negativity leave me, and I started to calm down.

 Minutes later. I got something that I have been needing to hear for a long time. My friend Tayler sent me a long page text message reminding me how good our friendship really is. And she reminded me that no matter what she is there. When you feel like people are constantly leaving its good to know that someone isn't. 

I feel like this day has been turning more and more into the right direction. 

This is where Chase comes in. I know if I need something I can go to him. And he is there. He sent me a message reminding me how much my Heavenly Father loves me. And how I am a daughter of god. I haven't felt the spirit in almost a year. But tonight I felt heavenly father right by my side. And so the affect of that was me crying more. Hahahaha but of course not in a bad way. I cant express my gratitude to him. Because to have the feeling of heavenly father right by you is describable. Especially when you are at your lowest. 

Tonight I found my band. My band that connects to me and makes me feel. Tonight I was reminded that I have my best friend there. Tonight I found my path to heavenly father. And tonight I lost all hatred for anything I ever had, except for when people don't signal. That still bothers me:)

I am challenging myself to a few things:

• 1. Be more positive.
• 2. Find one good thing in every bad situation that comes you way.
• 3. Say one compliment to at least 5 people you talk too each day. Especially one's you don't normally like. You can say it to them or just think it in your head.
• 4. Smile.
• 5. Pray more.
• 6. Stop swearing.
• 7. Live a more healthy lifestyle. (eat better, exercise)
• 8. Compliment yourself every morning.
• 9. Read at least one scripture every night.
• 10. Have faith.

**I challenge you to any of these that you lack in! It would mean a lot to me if you would try them for at least 2 weeks and tell me how it has changed or helped you in any way! (Put a comment below or simply email me!) And if you have any positive out comes then keep it up!!!**

Also listen to music because as I have been saying all night, "People can't fix you but music can." it makes my life a lot easier, and helped me in many many ways. Especially Augustana ;)

Thank you so much everyone who has been there for me in the darkest times. And thank you especially those who have been there today. I love you all sooooo much and thank you Heavenly Father for being there even when I was in doubt. Oh and thanks to Kels and Mom for bringing me doughnuts to make me happy!!! I love you all thanks for reading!

AND DON'T FORGET TO CHALLENGE YOURSELF!!!

Be True

Be You

Be Beautiful

Oh and good job to my school West Lake for trying to be a better school! Keep it up guys we will be a better student body soon enough!!!

 Also please pray for my friends dad to have a fast and good recovery he got in a bad accident and he needs all the prayers he can get!!! Thank you so much!!!
There is a HUGE bake sale going on to help them out: Please check it out!
(Link below)
***** BAKE SALE *****

Song of the day:

Picture of the day: (Thanks to Chase it is now my phone background!)

Oh hey and guess what! I saw Chandi today at smiths! AND tomorrow me and Ben are going album shopping! Yay:)

Rant

I cant explain it. This feeling I have. School has been crazy. And life has been running way too fast for me. I don't think I can remember the last time I actually felt like I could just relax. I don't know how to LIVE anymore. Honest and truly I don't know what to DO anymore. Its like I never get the chance to breathe when everything keeps getting shoved down my throat. Its almost graduation and its freaking me out. I feel like I am about to die or something when I know im not. I honestly have no idea what life is going to bring me after high school. I have been in the same routine since I was a little kid. Always gotten up at the same time, gotten ready for the same things. Everything has been on repeat. But now its like im playing a whole new song. I am freaking out too! School hasn't ever been my best subject in life. In fact im behind on graduation. (not so fun) That's part of whats bringing me down. Its a constant battle with my inner self trying to convince myself that im not a total failure and that I can do it.  School sucks and I hate it. The end to that rant.

PEOPLE OF THE WORLD! Or just who reads this.

OH yeah and i'm trying to be super good at having school spirit...
SO KIDS!
At Westlake....
Everyone go to the State cross country meet tomorrow!
It is 2$ to ride the bus up there and it leaves at 12! It would be super awesome to have as many kids as we can to support our awesome team!
THEN!
(yes it gets better)
There is a fundraising CHOIR CONCERT that night at 7! For 5$!!!
So peeps I know you want to come watch us dance and sing like crazy kids!!
Please be there for these things! It would mean a lot to all the kids who have been working hard for it!!!
THANKS!!!

I photographed a wedding?

So I photographed a wedding....

Let me tell you.

Kinda broke my heart.

Because one I love weddings.

Two it reminded me oh hey your going to be forever alone.

But then I got excited because oh hey they are cute and adorable.

It was really good to have a good friend Adam help me. 

It was a awesome first experience.

I have family photos im shooting soon too...

EXCITED!

But okay.

 I wont say very much.

I will just let you look:)

Sorry they are bad quality! I downloaded them off my album on face book because I am too lazy to go upstairs and get them off the other computer.

hehehehehehe

The bride:

She wanted to pose like this...she was so adorable.

 I LOVED her tattoo so I captured it as she was walking:)

silly me.

 What a gorgeous lady don't ya think?

Fancy things:

Happy couple:

 Other people of the wedding:

 The cute family!

The ladies!

The men.

Okay that's all now.

 Theeee end kthanks bye

Be True

Be You

Be Beautiful