Rant

I cant explain it. This feeling I have. School has been crazy. And life has been running way too fast for me. I don't think I can remember the last time I actually felt like I could just relax. I don't know how to LIVE anymore. Honest and truly I don't know what to DO anymore. Its like I never get the chance to breathe when everything keeps getting shoved down my throat. Its almost graduation and its freaking me out. I feel like I am about to die or something when I know im not. I honestly have no idea what life is going to bring me after high school. I have been in the same routine since I was a little kid. Always gotten up at the same time, gotten ready for the same things. Everything has been on repeat. But now its like im playing a whole new song. I am freaking out too! School hasn't ever been my best subject in life. In fact im behind on graduation. (not so fun) That's part of whats bringing me down. Its a constant battle with my inner self trying to convince myself that im not a total failure and that I can do it.  School sucks and I hate it. The end to that rant.