Crazzzyyynesss

HOLY crap I haven't been on in FOREVER, ok well this week has been CRAZY, I have been just trying to pass allllllll my classes and the moving out of Shelby's house and back into mine and then I have been trying to hang out with people that I promised I would..........so Friday is where I will start. I moved alll my stuff out and took it to my house. Then Konner came over and met my family.....holy funniest ever. He was so nice and played with my little sisters, talked with me dad (yyeesss) and my mom talked with him too. In fact we went to the store and got food hahahaha....random? YES! Then I went to their uncles house in orem with him and his older brother Kayden. We had lots of sun there. Then I went to Shelby's house and slept there........and Aubrey had locked me out cause she had a scary moment earlier.......FINALLY she opened the door. Then she slept in Shelby's room with me cause Shelby didn't come home till like 2! Then Me and Aubrey woke up early and went and got on her roof and did other things haha and scared Shelby while she was sleeping and she came out and yelled at us! mwahahaha. Then Konner and Kayden came and picked me up and we went to his uncles. Then we went to jump on it for his little brothers birthday! I had sooo much fun! His little sister is so cute! And his parents are so nice! And I already love every single one of his siblings:) Then we went BACK to his uncles. Kayden made German pancakes. And then I went to Shelby's again and filled Aubrey in about my day. And then we talked for a bit. And then we went to sleep! And I woke up this morning to my lip bleeding......ya gross......it got cut open.......holy nast.....And tomorrow there is no school and im going to be hanging with Eli my brother and organising my room. Then I finish school Tuesday...........

AND IM FREE!!!! 

and announcement...

ONLY 7 MORE DAYS TILL MY BIRTHDAY!

Well guys im off!! 

I will fill you in with anything else that happens!

Have a great day!

LOVE YOU ALL!!!

SONGS OF THE DAY!!!

well I love music soo...here are my songs of the day:

 

i love this song...

I have a hecka lot more.......but..........ya know.....sometimes you gotta stop! hahaha soo here is a taste!:) hahaha

SHORT POST!

Hey guys.......so not much to say but that school was pretty good.....I got 46 out of 55 on my math CRT! That's right......I do have some brains. I haven't done anything......sooo nothing to say....but......

                                       In 10 more days I am 16!!!!!!!

                                        And school is OVER in 7!!!
                    (even though I only have to go to four more days)

          im so excited you have NO idea........I have the best summer plans:)
                       Most of them with Konner, Adam, and Shelby :)

soo ya.....well I will post if anything great and amazing happens......I have to go work on my history poster now....BYEEE!!!:)
                                  love you guys your amazing!!!!:)
                                         

                                      quote of the day:

"Happiness often sneek's in through a door you didnt know you left open."

Summer just come!!!!

HHeeyyyy guys! Well today.......was...a Monday! I went to school....and it wasn't sooo bad...I had the math test and I'm pretttty sure I failed it....after school I went home and Adam came over and him and Shelby played tennis. Then we all went to the library! I wanted to get books soo bad...but guess who didn't have a card....this girl. yupp.....so kinda a fail....oh well then my grandma came and got me and we went to my other house and said happy birthday to ma fader....hello and happy birthday old man. hahaha juustt kidding! Then I went over to Konner's house!!!! And I met his family and we hung out annnd we planned more summer things to do! Then I went back to my house and me and my grandma left and now I am here! today was pretty good...nothing bad happened! I am soooo excited for summer.....and..................................
                                        MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
                                                Only 12 more days
                                                   and im 16!!!!!!!  
                               AHHHHHH SOOO EXCITED!

              Now ladies and gentlemen...........here is my summer to do list:
                                             get ready
                                               its pretty intense...........

 
                                 SUMMER BUCKET LIST OF 2011

*Go on on a LONG bike ride
 
*Lighten my hair
 
*Go to yogurt land at least 3 times

*Don't wear make-up for 6 days (not counting girls camp)

*Don't wear shoes for 6 days

*Go on a date

*Have a food fight

*Swim everyday for 5 days

*Go night swimming

*Get golf balls out of the pond

*Go to the zoo

*Go on a trip to a different state

*Get tan
 
*Tan a heart on me

*Dance in the warm rain

*Jump on my tramp in the rain

*Take pictures of bubbles

*Blow bubbles

*Stay off the computer for one week except for my blog (gotta keep you updated)

*Fry a egg on the side walk

*Go star gazing

*Go hiking

*See the sun rise

*TP someone's house

*Take a picture EVERYDAY

*Go to one of Adams baseball games

*Go to lagoon

*Go to 7 peaks

*Have a sleepover every night for one week

*Go on a night walk

*Blast my music LOUD from my house

*Sleep on my tramp

*Go to a carnival

*Write another song

*Go long boarding with Konner

*Hang out with my orem friends a LOT

*Go school shopping

*Plant a flower...or tree or some kind of plant....

*Buy a parakeet

* Get new music

*Go to summerfest

*Bra run with Shelbert

*Get a streak in my hair

*Get a hair cut

*Go blonde....... 

*Watch a meteor shower

*Go camping 

this list WILL get completed......some are hard...some are easy..lets just hope I remember I even have this list.........

          these two songs just remind me of summer........ahhh so happy!!!:)

                        oh guys almmost forgot my lesson of the day........
                            well.....BE HAPPY ITS AWESOME!!!!!!!!
OH and dont be jerks to your friends....cause you never know when they are going to leave...and you may think its funny and they make ACT like its funny but it could hurt them....so just be nice.....
                                           
                                                ok guys my quote:

   "Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect, it means that you have decided to look past the imperfections."

         k thanks guys! your awesome! have a great day!!:) love you all!!!!!

Oh life how your treating me well:)

OH MY I HAVENT BEEN ON IN FORRREEVVVEERRR! OK so I dont remember anything really except well this weekend.....ok...it was amazing.....like its been the best ever in a VERY long time....ok so I had youth conference with my new ward yaaaayyy!!! Ok I thought it was going to suck but when I first got there I was allready talking to people and meeting new ones. So we meet at the church and I didnt see many people I had met three weeks ago at church...so I was like hmm ok....then we go to camp williams army base and more kids showed up....first it was sad cause this kid killed a baby bird....on accident...then we ate dinner and play frizbee!!!!! I met this kid named Konner (again) and oh man I already freaking love him! Then I met Koleman his younger brother...and pretty much we have a truce on everything...water, grass, tar, sticks, splashing....anything anywaayyss we didnt do much the first day but set up where we were sleeping. and played games. I got to know a lot of new people and I love em all:) Me and Konner talked alll day bout random crap. Then the next day we played a lot of games and some courses and me Konner, Koleman, Jake and Austin ended up in the same group EVERYTIME (sometimes not honestly) hahaha and we had tons of fun. One of the leaders asked how me and Konner kept ending up in the same group. On the courses it was me, Jantzen, Konner, Sarah and Taylor. we were the BEST group there. Thank you to the two boys in our group. Who pretty much did it all. Then we played MORE games after cleaning out our barracks. And then we had testimony meeting....ok wow I havent seen so many boys cry because they felt the spirit....they all said it was allergies but we know what it really was:) then we went to the AF rec center and the WHOLE thing was reserved for us! most of us sat in the hot tub cause we were so cold and soar from earlier. Except for he boys who showed off on the diving board aka (Konner, Grant, Jake and sooo many others.) We didnt get home till 10:30. Then I went to church with them and I didnt go to sacrament cause my parents werent going. Even though I could have just sat with Konner....then I went to class and me and Jake and Konner kept getting in trouble cause of talking...hehehehehe and then I came home and we went to Brigmans for dinner (way good) then we came home and Adam came over and we all left to go to the graduation for Aubs and Mel!:) Then me and Riley went crazzzy! Loved it. Then we came home and we went more crazy and then ya....now im here...hahaha but....my lesson.....

                                   

   is life gets great after a lot of pain....oh life how your treating me well:)

                                          

 and my quotes of the day:

  "Rain washes away all the pain."

and

"God is there to catch us when we fall."

well guys your great!!!! Dont worry if life is hard right now I can promise itll get better. God is always there to catch you when you fall. Pray and keep faith cause he wouldnt hurt you. He is always there for you. And dancing in the rain always helps to get ride of things. I danced in the rain and I felt all my pain and anger washing away. It cleared my soul along with my mind.

glee cover:

LOVE IT

everybody loves me:

 just cause its true....totally kidding hahaha

You got me:

ha well for certain reasons:)

k guys im off to bed! byeee now!:)

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This is my song for you

This song is for you. Pretty much almost every word is....all my words for you.

7 THINGS
I probably shouldn’t say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared

It was awesome, but we lost it
It’s not possible for me, not to care
And now we’re standing in the rain
But nothing’s ever gonna change until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you
The 7 things I hate about you, oh you
You’re vain, your games, you’re insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don’t know which side to buy
Your friends, they’re jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It’s awkward and it’s silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
When you mean it, I’ll believe it
If you text it, I’ll delete it
Let’s be clear
Oh I’m not coming back
You’re taking 7 steps here

The 7 things I hate about you
You’re vain, your games, you’re insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don’t know which side to buy
Your friends, they’re jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention
The 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi’s
When we kiss I’m hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that’s both I’ll have to buy
Your hands in mine
When we’re intertwined, everything’s alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I like most that you do
You make me love you
You do.

I got inspired....(like I said I most likely would)...... thanks.....really....you fixed what you did...with out even knowing it. And fixed other things going on too......And thanks to Casey Garfield....for bringing me cookies and mint chocolate chip ice cream to cheer me up....and making sure I was ok....your a great friend:)

thanks.......bye now

Random.....

Well......dramatic day for so many reasons. Im tired of this...hollly ggeeeze.....oohh welll life goes on. Its rainy.....and that kinda sucks....Then pretty much.....I swear the world is out to get me. Even though I try really hard to make everyone happy.    Stressed.....yaaaahhh......
school.....sucks...PEOPLE....suck.....so
im just trying to find something that doesnt! And so far....im empty handed....but I will keep searching.....
                                               RANDOM.....
Your supposed to have luck when you find a penny....heads up.....welll total lie...so dont believe it....cause its not true....it seems with every penny I pick up the worst my luck gets.....maybe one day I will find the right penny..........

well I dont have much to say.....maybe I will get some inspiration between now and bed....lets hope cause I hate when everything sucks.
                               
                           quote of the day:
                                        
                      "keep holding on."

                 
              ok wellll bye guys...........

happiness is starting to come

Heeeyyy guys. Well yesterday I went to church and thennn I caame home! It was windy but warm and sunshiny:) I absolutely adored it:) Then Adam came over later that night and we talked for a bit then he tried to show me some skateboarding tricks.....pretty legit. Then I decided to go for a bike ride and saw him and Hannah outside and we chatted for a bit and watched Adam do more skateboarding tricks.....after a million tries he finally got the ONE he wanted. then he had to leave! So I rode my bike along side Hannah to her meeting and I rode back home. Then Adam called me and we talked on the phone for like a hour and a half? Then my mommy stopped by and said hello:) I listened to music for HOURS and I found some really good ones:

 

i love music:)

In fact on the 25th I have to sing in a talent show uhmmm CRAP I dont know what to sing.....SOOOO Im screwed. 

Toodaaay though at school I had fun! It was just a good happy day! I randomly found Adam's backpack in the gym......SOOO I returned that... He lost it...Biology was fun....I sat by Lucas and he is sooo funnny! We played the Match making game! After school I rode the bus and me and Corbin pretty much went crazy! And me and Casey planned to play tennis! I love tennis...too bad I suck at it! OHH WELL! Ok so its not even super warm...and I already have EIGHT mosquito bites.....gross? Yes.

P.s. I have been thinking about somethings....People have been constantly telling me...to let go of some people....but I cant.....I am sick of people being jerks....and I am sick of people thinking they are better....and I am sick of people....including me not being happy! 

ITS TIME TO SMILE!

CAUSE apparently I suck at hiding it! And summer is coming and school is almost over sooo that means

HAPPINESS IS STARTING TO COME!

and lets not forget....

19 MORE DAYS TILL MY 16TH BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

holy im excited!!!

And today I was happy! I was a little sad I didnt go to morp like I planned....but oh well! I partied with kyle and nate:) They made me happy!

IM going to make a bucket list for summer....and when I do....you guys will get to see it...and possibly...join me in the summer fun!!!

But right now everything is amazing! I love life, I love music, I love the weather (usually), I love photography, I LOVE my hair becoming freaking amazing, I love school being almost over, I love my birthday coming up! ANNND I love everything:)

quote of the day:

"Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect, It means you have decided to look beyond the imperfections."

thanks guys! be happy:)

bye!

Here is the pictures:)

this is me and kyle and john at the assembly I forgot to mention....

Before SLC!

the pretty temple

me and Adam :)

these kids are freaking funny

me and Hannahs adventure!

my new shoes:)

UHMMM?

Heeeyyy! Well I haven't been on in awhile. OK so I don't really remember much that has happened except school.......that sucks hahaha BUT I do remember I went to the church history museum in slc for mutual. Me and Adam and this kid named Breck? Had sooooo much fun! Then we got ice cream and me and Ethan and Adam and me went crrraazzzy! Then Thursday is a blur........but Friday! Friday was fun me and Kyle hung out after school and we went to the gas station and we bought lots of soda and then he drove me home. Adam had his last baseball game and he pitched sooo way to go Adam! We won the game! I didn't get to watch this is just the facts Adam filled me in with. Then I played tennis with Casey and Shelby and I was good for once!!!  Then I tryed to play Adam and got mad and I sucked.....Then Brennan showed up and they left then I went to hang out with Casey and Jett and we played with fireworks! Then we went with Brennan and Adam to get golf balls:) I wanted to go in the water buuut I didnt! Then we went to Adams and hung out till they went home. THen I went to Shelbs and Adam came over again and he was in a WEEEIIRRDDD mood from his melatonin....liikkee its hilarious!!!! Then he left and I went to bed. Then today! I woke up to Aubrey screaming over a spider. THe I got up and went over to Adams and he played guitar hero.....just another thing I suck at. Then we went to the mall! And he got a FREAAAKING SEXY hat that has NY on the front and HIRCHAK #2 on the back! The two is Derek Jeter his favorite player pretty much. The I got some cute white vans:) Then I came home and went to Hannahs for a min to see her cute morp outfits:) Then I went and hung out with Brennan and Jett but Brennan left so we tried to find other people to hang out.....but no one could so I just came home! And found a cute little puppy to follow me:) And now its raining and thats lame..........But today was a good day! I was happy and it was so FUNNN! I was supposed to be getting ready for morp but....my date didnt want to go anymore soooo ya! But oohhh welll! Might as well party on my own!!!! But thanks for reading guys! Hope your weeekend is great!!!!

                                                   looove this song!

                                                This is a great song...........

I thought wrong!

Hey guys:) Well I woke up today thinking today was going to suck because I didnt have time to take a shower and there was no hot water so I had to wash my hair in the faucet in cold water....(skinny me freezes to death) SO I was in a bad mood....I THOUGHT WRONG! Because then I got on the bus and I sat by Adam (like I do everyday) And he made me feel a bit better....OK he always does but ya know!? Then I go to school and eat breakfast and that was fun and then I was trying REALLY hard not to fall asleep in first period....And Heriford noticed and made fun of me for it...hahahaha kinda was really funny. Then in English I was mad....for certain reasons....Then in PE I went crazy like usual....then biology I found my name in a book...hahaha im cool...NOT....then after school I stayed late with Adam before he had practice. And he attempted to teach me how to throw and catch a baseball.....toooo bad I suck and am terrified of it. Hahaha Then I came home annnd I talked to shelbert.....And ate some yogurt....And pretty much thats all I have done....But I would like to spill some honesty....I have thought a lot about the past.........About things I have let go of...things I forgave.....I let go of my best friend....and that was well many lessons in one. It was bad because I hurt someone very badly. It was good because I became stronger. It was bad because I was so hurt by it I would take anything and everything that would come my way.....I took back people that hurt me....SOOOOOOOOO badly....I let people walk all over me....I wanted to fit in. I got caught into some bad friendships. I fought a lot more with people. But see all these things....made me stronger. And better. I try HARDER to be nicer. AND I realized I have a lot of friends. And life deserves to be enjoyed! And today was a great day! My old self is coming back...the happy me. I'm excited for summer. I'm excited for the warmth:) I'm excited for all the many adventures I will go on, the many memories I will make. OH random another regret I kinda have is dropping choir....I love to sing so much....and I don't show my talent (if there really is one) to other people...unless I forget im singing out loud in class and in the halls hahahaha. I have had many solos but never done anything in a talent show or anything. I write songs but I don't play them or show them. I am working on my guitar and piano playing though! Hopefully that shall work out! Anyways life is great... You guys are all amazing! And if there is something going on in your life that you don't quite understand....don't give up. Take it with you. LEARN FROM IT. Have it make you to become better. If you didn't do something right....didn't get something you wanted but tried really hard for....Let this make you want it even more. Keep going with what your doing. Find every way to become even better. You can get through anything.....hold your head high and keep a smile on your face!
                                          my quote of the day:

       "When the world says give up, Hope whispers try it one more time."

HEY guys ok wellll today was Adams birthday so happy birthday Adam! We went to los hermanos (me Hannah Shelby and his family and him) It was reallly fun I loved it! But today at school was pretty boring.....just the usual....going to class....ALTHOUGH I did figure out im REALLY interested in the assassination of JFK.....its soooo crazy to me...hahaha history nerd yes:) Math was fun and easy for once!! Sewing was boring.....Lunch was normal and boring....Seminary Adam pushed me to cause he thought I wasnt going when REALLY I was going to the locker room.....Then I came home made cupcakes....(after a little freak out) And me and Aub carried plates of cupcakes and balloons to Adams house. It spelled out HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADAM!:) Unfortunately I forgot pictures. Then I hung out with Hannah and Adam before we went to dinner. Then I came back....and I didnt really do anything....But guys I have decided......that....im sick of life. Because. Im not enjoying it....What needs to change? ME. I have become a colder person after everything this year. And I have many regrets. So I have new goals:

Listen to better music
Smile
Dont take things so seriously
Be nice to people....even if I realllllyyyy dont want to
Photograph more
Just be me
Pray with a little more heart and a little more thought
Laugh even if its hard
Think positive...push all those bad and negative thoughts out. Whats the point of holding all those bad thoughts in your head when all your doing is hurting yourself. There is no point. You deserve happiness. Im very excited for this new me to happen. This stronger and happier me:) Im living life as if there was nothing serious in it. GOING WITH THE FLOW! Best medicine out there. Smiling and Laughter. Cures it all. Surround yourself with happy positive people who make you happy and who you make happy. Every second matters. So spend it like it were your last!
                                            
                                                    quote of the day:

"SING like no one is listening. DANCE like no one is watching. LOVE like you have never been hurt. LIVE as if heavens on earth."

                                             thanks for everything guys.

How I live now

How I live now. Its a painful journey. I carry so much on my shoulders. And I hold onto to things so tightly. I hide things from the world. And from the people who love me most. I act differently around others. When I KNOW im not being genuine and me. I cry because I think of all the NEGATIVE things and never think of the positive.....I here post about being happy when im not happy myself? How im GOING to live. Im going to TAKE the journey. Life will NOT be carried on my shoulders. It will be a journey worth taking.....a long road for ME to walk on. People on the sides passing in and out of my life. I will be WHO I AM. And not who others want me to be. I realize I have people who do care.....and who will listen. I wont cry...because there wont be anything to cry about. How I live now. RIGHT now. Is going to change. Here comes summer and happiness. Here comes  my 16 birthday and a little more freedom:). Here comes well NO SCHOOL! Here comes me. A happy and STRONGER me. Not a new me..... a BETTER me.

                                               quote of the day:

"never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made  a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself."

BUUUTT I WANT TO SAY IN ABOUT 25 MIN IS ADAM JAMES HIRCHAK'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Happy birthday Adam your amazing and im SO glad I have you in my life! Thanks for everything you have done for me! I hope your birthday is AMAZING! You have done so much for me and I wanted to say I loooveeee you! HAPPPPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kneel

Well hey guys.........ok sooo yesterday........was........interesting.....nothing really happened.....Me and Adam kinda hung out and "attempted" to play tennis till Shelby came then I was just the ball girl......then we were going to go to the lake and swim cause it was freaking hot.......but we didnt instead we watched Adam play a homerun derby? Kinda fun actually........thenn we rode bikes for a bit.......then Adam left and I went to the park that was by me and I sat on the swings for a bit by myself.......just to get away.........so I could think about life? And not to have anyone there to bother me........Well then the great friends I have decided to waterballoon me......so thanks guys.....for maknig my great day even better.......ya....just ya.......I saved Casey and Jett though! They did NOT get ballooned......mwahahaha. Then after I changed out of my horrible wet clothes Adam came back over and then we called Hannah over.......We played guitar for a bit and then we made a fire! It was pretty freaking fun....then I attempted recording Adam dancing and he stole my phone and accidently threw it at the ground.......cause it to break........then causing the battery to fly into the grass........so for pretty much the remainder of the night....we searched for my battery! Greattttt fun! Then Hannah and Adam left and I sat in the kitchen for a bit eating food.......then I went to bed. TODAAAYYY though is mothers day! And I wanted to say thank you to alllllll the amazing moms out there! I loveeeee my strange mother:) She is just amazing!!! I hope all you mothers have a GREAT mothers day!:) 

      

ps mom I attempted to make you cookies.......but I burned them.......I STILL LOVE YOU THOUGH! 

Well thats about the just of what happened........But my lesson for the weekend......Well It kinda sucked this weekend.......and I have been stressed.......and people are just....GREAAAATTTTT! (sarcasm) I love them so MUCH....ha........haha.........ha. Anyways just try to be happy....your all worth something.......you may think you don't matter, like no one listens, like the world is out to get you.....but the truth is........SO many people love you........SO many listen and SO many care! The day may be hard but life has a way of fixing things.....you just have to be patient..... my quote for this weekend:

      "When life gets to hard to stand, kneel."

life is going to get better if you pray and have faith in your heavenly father. He gives us challenges so we can become stronger and learn lessons to use later in life. He is always there to help us. And is always there to guide us. 

I want to say thanks though to:

                                HANNAH BROACH. 

Your amazing and I love you sooo much. Your one of the best friends ANYONE could ask for. You have made a HUGE impact on my life and have made me a better person. Thanks so much for everything girl. Im always here for you and I love you.

Friends?

SO can I just say that I love friends........I love the ones who listen and are there for you......the ones that can tell if something is wrong........the ones that wont say anything to hurt your feelings just cause they think its funny........the ones who are honest and stand by your side.........The friends that trust you........because they get to know the REAL you.......I love all my friends.......thanks guys for always being there..........your amazing.......some have made more of a impact on me then others.......and some have hurt more then others.......but you know im glad you have all come into my life......you have made me.....me! And helped me become stronger.......I love you guys.....for everything. I want to end this last year at mountain view.....the best I can. Be strong.........Be happy......life is sure to get better.......just hold your head high in all your afflictions.......life is meant to be full of lessons and hardship.....its a test. To see how well YOU deal with it.......dont try and change everyone around you.....cause its not always the OTHER person.....its usually YOU. But if it is the other person......then talk to them....everyone has a heart somewhere.....sometimes you just have to dig deep.......dont give up. It just takes time.....anyways just remember..........you always have a friend..... YOUVE GOT A FRIEND IN ME hahaha random song singing....ok wellll im done now......byyye guysss:)

I hate

I hate it when your fish die. And I hate it when people talk about you behind your back. I hate people who act like something they aren't. I hate it when people talk about you, but you know its about you cause they find every possible way to hint at it. I hate it when a song comes on that makes you think of that sad moment you have had. I hate it when no one listens. Or when you think no one is listening and really your the one making the mistake. I hate goodbyes. And I hate how much I love that one person. I hate how im moving. I hate how things fall apart. I hate how a day starts off great, and that ONE thing ruins it, even though your doing our best.....to be happy. I hate not being happy. I hate all those things in the past I still hold onto. I hate when people lie. I hate it when its cold. I hate. yes I hate. But I love. And love will always over come that hate. Just gotta know how to use it in the right way.

                                       QUOTE OF THE DAY (again):

                                 "Where there is love, there is life."

Just be happy!!

Wellllllllll I haven't gotten on for awhile!!!! BUT anywayss uhm I have had a realllyyy freaking great last few days!!! SO I asked Mr Adam James Hirchak to morp........with a really coool idea......but im too lazy to type it.......THEN that night HE ANSWERED! Me and Shelby went on a walk and when we came back there was a bowl of like 12 gold fish saying of all the fish in the sea im glad you asked me!!!! With another sign that said don't kill the fish........hahahaha then Wednesday was just freaking hilarious for sooooo many reasons that i wont even get into.........just.......ya hahahhahahahaa it was great. anywaaayss later that night I will say I did accidentally dump soda ALLL over adam......when he was like......half awake......I felt sooo bad! But not going to lie.....it was funny. Today though was freaking aaaammzzzing! Classes were fun....I got reallly interested in the lesson in history about the JFK assassination.......and yes that's a little weird butt its kinda legit and crazy and intense.....thheenn after school I had to run to make up for days I missed pe and HOLY crap it was HHHHOOOTTT. I almost died.........and I have to run again tomorrow.....yippee.....NOT then when I came home I layed in the sun and did homework:) it was amazing. And wait I forgot I went to seminary today for the first time in three months........and it was really good. I liked it......we learned about how to treat women and about how great our mommys are:) MY leessson though is well..........LIFE IS SOOO MUCH MORE FUN WHEN YOUR HAPPY!!!!!!!! I have been having a GREAT week and ive been happy! So my children I promise you........if you forget about the hard and bad things in life just for a little bit.........and put a smile on your face....then your life will be amazing! DONT WORRY BE HAPPY NOW!!!!! Wellll thanks for reading this boring post.....I love you all and goodbye!
this song is for the great sunshine:

                                                MY QUOTE OF THE DAY:

                              "Every man dies, but not everyman lives."

he got to my heart......

he played this for me and pretty much made my day.......

THE WHOLE DANG SHA BANG!

SO I haven't written anything for a while!!! BUT here is my weekend......SO Saturday was the day of prom and I didn't get asked so instead I went shopppppinnngg!!!:) AND got waaay cute shirts! Then I came home and hung out with Adam and Shelby and we made a fire in her backyard.....that was pretty great! Then Hannah and Emily joined! We were having a great time.....till we got on the subject of me not going to seminary for three months......and I got frustrated and went inside....then Adam and me........had a little chat.....it was a good chat.....I cryed but in a good way because I got a lot out that I had been holding in. AND I JUST WANT TO SAY THANK YOU ADAM!!! YOU listened to me in my worst moments and that means a lot....sooo thanks. ANYWAYS we went outside and hung out the rest of the night with Hannah and Emily.....and I just want to say I love those two darlings:) ANYWAYS after everyone went home.....I went to sleep....hahaha BUT I was told a story that reallly got to me........

I was told that three months ago I reminded someone of little tinkerbell.....Always happy and energetic....and as I slowly stopped going to seminary...just like the movie when tinkerbells light slowly goes out..... so was mine...........and im still me....but my little light is slowly going out.....so I promised I would go to seminary so I could become the best tinkerbell there is........and to become....me again. I guess it affects my life a lot more then I thought. This will be a good experiment...

anyways THE NEXT DAY was sunday!!! I woke up got ready for church (well attempted) It was a little difficult at first I wont lie....I was struggling. Then church was good! Me and Adam kept awkwardly running into each other and freak out cause we were trying to figure out who out of us two was the CREEP. After church my grannnndmama came and picked me up and we went to my house in eagle mountain. And let me tell ya me and my grandma are freaking HILARIOUS together! Ooooh good times. Then when we got to my house me and my mom went to the store for.....secret objects that will be mentioned later......then I left and went to my cousins house and literally ate a bit of EVERYTHING from the kitchen I was going on a food rampage! Then I came back to shelberts and hung out with Adam even though he pretty much fell asleep....and I cleaned. Then I went to sleeep AND NOW its MONDAY!!!! So I woke up in a greeeaattt mood and had a fun day at school..nothing really exciting happened except I did get my picture taken for yearbook and my little quote for the view in me is but thats about it...IT WAS GOOD! Then I came home and sat in Hannah's yard with her, McKenzie, and Casey! Then I went home and uhm I saw the best thing EVER I don't think Shelby would be too happy if I told you soo I will keep it to myself! But pretty much I almost peed my pants....THEN we went and layed in the amaazzzinng SUNSHINE and got a little tan! Then we went golfing with Wes, Casey, and McKenzie. Than we came home and here I am! I shall post later......I have a top secret mission today......I shall fill you in later......and there is no lesson for the day except.....LIFE IS AMAZING WHEN YOUR HAPPY!
this is prettttyy much just a good song even though it relates to nothing.....