The Copy Demons

I cant stop.

 I cant stop being what I am. And I cant stop growing into what I will become. You can try and hold me back. And you can try to hold me down. But deep down everything will remain the same. I will be me. 

And only me. 

I am Jade Waters May. And I am very incomplete. I am growing. And I am learning. 

People like to talk, like to guess, like to pretend they know everything about me. But do you?

• I am Jade
• My middle name is after the lead singer of Pink Floyd Roger Waters
• My favorite color is Teal and Green
• I like Vintage
• I love photography
• I am scared of the dark unless I have someone with me, and even then I freak out a bit
• I hate texting but love phone calls
• I have made so many mistakes that I will never fully forgive myself for
• I want to be a Marine Scientist
• I am a romantic
• I like cheesy things
• I love Flowers and animals 
• I like crazy mis-matched things
• Crazy prints are my best friend
• I am loud and crazy
• I love brussel sprouts....and asparagus
• I LOVE BACON
• People say I am young and I don't know what love is. But I do. 
• I love my Heavenly Father
• My family is freaking great
• I have great friends
• And a great boy in my life
• I hate to be mean but I have no problem stating how things are
• My life has been hard, but I have learned from it
• My best friend in the whole world is my mom
• I cant cry in front of people, I can barely cry alone. So if I am sad I show anger.
• I believe in fairy tales, mermaids, and anything that's in the story books. This world is too dull to think otherwise.
• I am very self conscious
• I hate sitting still
• I hate being serious
• I put up a wall in front of myself to make it seem like I don't care but I do
• I give people advice that I will never use for myself
• I hate broken promises. In any way shape or form
• I am self centered to a certain point, but I still care for everyone else. I just think that sometimes you have to put yourself first in order to survive
• I don't let my mistakes go until AFTER they have eaten my soul into nothing, then I try to rebuild
• I am bossy a lot
• My favorite candy is pezzzzzz and cow tales
• I love love love Dr. pepper and cranberry-pomegranate juice
• I love to go on long drives, talk and look at the stars
• Camping? The Bomb.
• Ugly sweaters are the best clothing option
• I cant stand being the center of attention. Being put on the spot is the worst thing ever. Especially in front of a lot of people.
• I can not. Handle. Being embarrassed in front of people. Anything to make me feel like I have failed in any way in front of people is something that I can't do.
• I love to sing and PRETEND I can write music
• I wish so badly that I could play the piano
• I want to be married and grow old with the love of my life
• I get scared SUPER easily
• I cry in movies
• I get jealous very vverryy easily
• Sometimes I point out my flaws and things I don't like about myself because it gets hard for me to hold it in.
• Hugs are one of the best medicines for a sad soul
• My favorite movie is Moulin Rouge 
• And I love to eat

All these things are just a few that make who I am. You can tell me what YOU think I am. But I will know its wrong. People walk this earth trying to be everything they aren't. They hold themselves together after people rip them down. They tape a smile on their faces trying to cover up the frown that's been glued on by someone else. They cover themselves up with a new body, a new personality, and a book of lies. All because every OTHER person just like them. Makes them feel this way. I will never understand why another person has the need to make someone else feel lower then them just so they can be happy. We are all the same, in so many ways. We are all connected and instead of trying to help one another live. We try to make one another die. But why? Why this need for us to feel better then someone else? I wont sit here and pretend that sometimes the copy demons don't get a hold of me. There are days that I do wish to be someone else just to be noticed. But guess what. I will never be someone else. And neither will you. So instead of trying to make yourself something your not. Instead of trying to improve another person and trying to make a new them. Just improve the soul that's already there. Just make you the best you want to be. I have already challenged myself this year and all the following years to stop. To stop caring what others think. To stop trying to make myself a copy of someone else. Because I am me. Simply me. And you are simply you. And if anyone has a problem with it then they don't deserve to be in your life. Now I could ramble on for evverrr and ever about this stuff. But I wont. I will just simply challenge you to do the same I did. Love you. Love everyone else. And don't let the copy demons get a hold of you. Because our world is full enough of people trying to live someone else's life. 

Thanks for listening to the awkward rant of this little girl

I love you all

Your fabulous and amazing and perfeecttt and I love you

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Be True

Be You

Be Beautiful

And don't let yourself die a copy when you were made a original.

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